In our move in October, our full-length mirror broke. Finally bought one, but it’s on back-order - of course. So, when we were in Cancun, I got to see myself in a full-length mirror. In a swimsuit. Yeah. Haven’t done that in over a year. *gasp*
I’m proud of myself. I didn’t sit there and scowl, pinch my body, or talk about how I need to diet. Nope. I have a daughter, and I’ve vowed to never do those things as long as I can help it. Instead. I took a breath, put my cute sun hat on, and pondered what I needed to do to change.
You see, my entire adult life I’ve been active. Even during my pregnancy and directly after (when the doctor said I could - and I felt healthy enough to do so). Until around February 2016. Yes. Almost a year and a half ago. Long distance running has always been my thing (with some months of boxing here and there in between). But after my half marathon in February 2016, I stopped running. It was a little bit my injured knees. But mostly laziness and excuses, if I’m being honest.
After seeing that image in the mirror, I knew I needed to change. I don’t want this to turn into another year or five of me neglecting my health, blaming motherhood. Because honestly? I’m only going to have less and less “free” time the older she gets.
So what did I do? I reactivated my MyFitnessPal account. Nope, not dieting. Just tracking what I eat to help me make educated healthy choices. I put on a swimsuit yesterday and went for a swim. I swam laps for 20 minutes. It was exhilarating. And it was hard AF but I did it. And today I downloaded a 30-day challenge app where I can put different challenges to complete over the next 30 days.
You guys. This is hard. As a working mom, I feel guilty taking time for myself. I already don’t see my toddler as much as I want. So now I’m going to see her less? That’s been my excuse. And it’s a horrible one. Basically, I’m blaming the best thing that ever happened to me and treating her as an excuse to completely ignore taking care of myself. It's not right and not fair to her.
I won’t be reserving Saturday’s for 8 mile runs anymore. At least not right now. Nope. Instead I’ll take my app workouts that can be done at lunch in my office or once the kiddo is asleep at home and taking 20 minutes 3 days a week to swim laps, clear my mind, and work on me.
If you want to join me, I’d love company!